i have been isolated for the last 4 years. Remember Castaway with Tom Hanks? Remember how the character needed that little piece of rope that was attached to the tree up at the top of that hill? He didn't want to go back up there.
There was a blue network cable tied to the closet rod in my closet for the longest time. I couldn't take it down. I didn't want to touch it. I didn't want to look at it. I finally took it down about a year ago and threw it away. I don't i think I am going to be needing it anymore.
I know one thing. When you think you can't go on there are parts of you that never give up. They will loosen the bindings so you can you breathe. They will make you stand aside when they do it. It will be like you are outside of your body watching your hands move of their own volition. You will have no choice but to go on when you realize you can't fight a part of yourself that you didn't even realize was there.